Do you ever feel alone? I do. I know there are people who love me. I know there are people who care. Sometimes though, I just feel....lonely. Like there are few people who actually WANT my company. Like I'm a backup plan when things fall through, or someone to spend time with when there is nothing else to do and no one else to be with.
"Are you lonesome tonight..."
I know it's not true. I just hate having that feeling. Please don't get me wrong. This is not jealousy. I'm honestly super happy to see those I love enjoying life with those they love. I'm just in that lonely sort of mood. Does this make me sound like a desperate weirdo? I hope not.
I'm so thankful that there is One who ALWAYS wants my company. When others fail, He will always remain. He is my rock. My fortress. My supplier. My best friend. My comforter. My provider. My love beyond all loves. My confidant. My solitude. My refuge. He's my redeemer! He is the Alpha and Omega of my life! I'm so glad Jesus desires my time all the time!
Nope you don't sound like a weirdo. We all go through that. I know I do. I can be with the people I love and still feel lonely and alone. Sounds weird but true! I have those moods and then come out of them. It's bad when we stay in those moods and don't pull out of them and they get worse. You are normal. As for Jesus, yes he is there always. He has gotten me through all that I have been through lately with my health and keeps me going. I couldn't survive without him. I love you and you know that you are never alone and I'm always here for you. I miss seeing you, Josh and Levi but I know it can't be helped with our jobs and where we live. You are in my thoughts, prayers and on my mind often. Love again, Mom.
ReplyDeleteI miss seeing you guys too Mom!! I love you!!
ReplyDeleteThank you for such an honest, thought-provoking post! It just takes someone to be willing to put it out there and be transparent for Jesus for us to ALL realize He is the only perfecter of our faith and our circumstances! Have a blessed day, and keep your eyes focused on HIM! :-)
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