I like to lose it lose it

You, my reader, are one lucky puppy tonight.  You get to be inside the head of this blogger twice in one day! 
"Luck be a lady tonight!"
 I haven't blogged in awhile about my weight loss journey so, I thought I would fill you in.  I have been doing Weight Watchers sporadically since my last post.  I really wasn't having much success with it though.  I was feeling kinda stuck in a rut.  In the meantime my husband, or DH ( I just recently learned that is blog speak for dear husband), has been counting calories.  He has been SUPER determined!
After seeing how successful Josh has been at following a routine of calorie counting, I thought I'd give it a shot.  First of all, it's free.  Weight Watchers is decidedly far from free!  Second of all, I thought it would be nice for us to be following the same type of plan.  It helps us plan meals better and just hold one another accountable. 
So, I joined a site called www.loseit.com.  It really is like a weight loss fb! I'm really liking the new program and I am doing pretty well with it.  I weighed in yesterday and I have lost 4.8 lbs!  Woohoo!  DH weighed in and was down 6!  I think this is going to work!
It is making such a difference to be doing this with DH.  I am so encouraged by his determination and progress and it is nice to be able to keep each other on track.
I'm excited to see what our future holds as skinnier, healthier people!
By the way....my hubby is also blogging about his weight loss and other things.  He is a great writer!  Check him out at easiertoputon.blogspot.com.  You won't be disappointed!
Until we talk again...
"Happy trails to you.  Until we meet again."

loneliness

Do you ever feel alone?  I do.  I know there are people who love me.  I know there are people who care.  Sometimes though, I just feel....lonely.  Like there are few people who actually WANT my company.  Like I'm a backup plan when things fall through, or someone to spend time with when there is nothing else to do and no one else to be with.
"Are you lonesome tonight..."
I know it's not true.  I just hate having that feeling.  Please don't get me wrong.  This is not jealousy.  I'm honestly super happy to see those I love enjoying life with those they love.  I'm just in that lonely sort of mood. Does this make me sound like a desperate weirdo?  I hope not. 
I'm so thankful that there is One who ALWAYS wants my company.  When others fail, He will always remain.  He is my rock.  My fortress.  My supplier.  My best friend.  My comforter.  My provider.  My love beyond all loves.  My confidant.  My solitude.  My refuge.  He's my redeemer!  He is the Alpha and Omega of my life!  I'm so glad Jesus desires my time all the time!

a songless songbird

I don't have any songs tonight.
Why not?
I'm tired.  Plain and simple.  I need to go to bed.  But, coffee, a running mind, and the desire to get something posted has me here.  At 2am.
I'm going to post quickly and then try to force myself to shut my brain down and sleep.
Today was weigh in day!
I was seriously not expecting much.  I tried to make good choices for the most part but, this first week back was hard.  I was taken out to dinner to two FABULOUS restaurants, The Melting Pot and Lottawatta Creek, (I highly recommend both!) and Ted Drewes for dessert and I ate well at each place. :o)
So, I was not anticipating facing the scale.
I was pleasantly surprised to find that I have lost 2.4 lbs the past week.  Woohoo!  My WW meeting was good and very inspiring too.
I am happy with the results of the week.  I felt a slight twinge of guilt for losing after eating out this week when I got home and found out that hubby actually gained a little over a lb. this week.  He has been so dedicated to tracking his calories and walking this week.  I know he was disappointed.  I also know he does not want me to feel guilty for success so, I quickly put my guilt away.  He is such an encourager to me when I do well.  I love that about him!  I just hope to be the same for him.
Oh, and I discovered a new sweet treat that I think will work well for me.  I am a serious chocoholic and sweets lover.  Tonight I found that a shot glass of semi-sweet chocolate chips is just 4 pts.  I can take my time with these and eat one chip at a time.  By the end of the "shot" I was satisfied for my choco craving and felt like I had much more chocolate than I actually did. Yay!
Also, if you like apple pie...The new Jello temptations apple custard pie flavor is FAB!  Yummy!
Okay, that's all for tonight.  I seriously am about to pass out on the compuuuuuuuuuuuuuu


Just kidding!  Good night peeps!

If I was invisible...

Hello there blog world....

Here we are together again a mere 4 months after my last post.  Yes, I said 4 months.  Sheesh.
I stand before you once again admitting to falling.  And this time, it has taken me awhile to get back up.  Seriously, I think for the past couple months I have just thrown caution to the wind. 
I did well on WW for awhile.  I had lost about 15 lbs.  Then I got sidetracked by something and well, it's a slow fade, as the song says.  I slowly faded back into old eating habits and now I am 9 lbs more than my initial starting weight on WW. 
I stopped blogging and I guess I thought if I didn't blog, it didn't matter.  In my head, not blogging made me invisible and I could hide in that deniability.  I could pretend that it wasn't as bad as it was because, I was not having to sit here and tell the truth to myself or anyone else.  (I know there is not a lie detector attached to my blog but, I seriously don't think I could post a lie on here.)  However, I started blogging to be accountable.  I have to be true to that.  So,
I'm back. AGAIN.  I weighed in at WW on Thur. and did a complete restart.  I will conquer this.  It may take some battling and some ups and downs but I know I am more than a conqueror.
A big positive on this time around, my handsome hubby, is uber-motivated himself.  It is really inspiring to see and I want to do well with him.  I think it will make it easier to be accountable to one another with both of us doing something at the same time.   
Alright, enough for now.  Nice to talk to you all again!
Until next time....

Results and goals

Well, I completed week one on Weight Watchers (to be known as WW from here on). 

Saturday morning, I reluctantly dragged my butt out of bed.  I didn't want to go weigh in.  I stayed on point all week but, I was REALLY dreading the scale.  The new points system made me nervous.  I ate ALOT of fruit.  It felt almost like cheating to count it all at zero points!  I just knew I had done something wrong so, I didn't want to see the results. 
I pulled into the parking lot and got to my meeting 5 minutes late.  I could deny it no longer.  The moment of truth was approaching.  After paying my weekly fee and getting my new inspiring paperwork, she asked me to step on the scale.  Here it comes.  I better take off my shoes and take my phone out of my pocket first.  That way maybe it will counterbalance a few ounces.  Okay, no more stalling...
I stepped on the scale and watched the numbers flip back and forth.  Finally they settled.  Weight loss for the week.....................
5.2 GLORIOUS POUNDS!!!  What??!!!  Did I seriously lose this week?  Wow!  This new program must have something to it.

Now, I am on day 3 of week 2.  I love the flexibility of this new program and I love the free fruit because I am definitely not a big fan of most veggies.  I am really excited to see my results for weigh in #2. 
I know that results are not typical for 5 lbs so, I'm hoping for at least 2 lbs.  We shall see.  I still have 4 days ahead of me.

My goal right now is to be down 10% by our Easter production, Alive Again, at church.  I am not a significant part.  I am just a townsperson/chorus girl.  However, I did the production last year and this year, I really want to be less of me.  Being fat in front of people is hard. You really get a nasty inner monologue going as to what people must be saying about you.  This year I'm aiming at being less fat in front of people.  I don't want my fat to snuff out the light of Jesus shining through me as I perform.  I don't want my fat to be a distraction to the importance of the message in the songs I am sharing.  So, that's my goal.  And I think it is achievable.

NANERNANERBOOBOO!

Hello all!  Here I am almost a month later again!
The holidays were very, um, expanding for me.  NOT good.

I am happy to say that, I am ....on the road again....lalalalala...on the road again....

That is, I am once again on the road to a slimmer and healthier me.

I had been doing South Beach and that was dandy but, it just felt like something was missing on that diet for me.  Let's face it.  I need me some pasta!

So, I decided to pursue a plan that has worked for me in the past.

I joined Weight Watchers last weekend.  

I am doing this with one of my bestest friends so, that is a big bonus on it's own.  It will be nice to have someone to talk to about how many points blah blah is without boring them to the point they want to shut my pie hole with my points calculator.
Except, you get to listen to it too. Why?  Because you can't reach through your computer. HAHA! NANERNANERBOOBOO! ;o)

Here are the other reasons I returned to WW.
*When I'm doing WW, I feel like I HAVE to track my food.  I don't feel that way about any other program.  I really NEED to track my food intake so I will pay attention to what I am putting in my body.
*I will be weighing each week in front of a live person. (I hope!  I would hate to think that WW uses dead people for their weigh in technicians!)  I need the accountability of another set of eyes on that scale when I step on it.  I need to feel embarrased if it goes up, like I'm letting them down.  I don't like letting anyone down.  That is a motivator for me to be better.
*I really wanted to try out the new program they have launched.  It looked like something I can really stick with.

So, we shall see how this goes.  I will weigh in again on Sat morning.

So far, I am doing well.  My first day on, I didn't count points but I figured that I used my daily allowance plus my weekly excess allowance because we ate at CiCi's Pizza for my niece's birthday.  (She is the cutest one year old princess ever by the way!)  Day two, I had the flu so, my points came back to me if you know what I'm saying.  If you don't, don't think about it too long.  It's not pleasant.  Days three and four, I have stayed within my points range. Yay!  Today, I even told my hubby that I almost felt like I was eating too much.  This new plan allows for most fruits to be ZERO points.  It almost feels like cheating!

I'm excited for this journey and glad to be back with you all once again!